Updated: Apr 11
I was young, maybe too young to really know what and who I am but I had my first boyfriend and he was openly gay.
I didn´t know how I should tell my mom that I am gay just because I wasn´t sure about her reaction.
You know when you are young, like really young. Okay, wait. I mean I was 12. So you see not the easiest age to really know who you love or what you like but for me, it was the right time.
I remember that when we were talking about sexuality, a lot came to my mind.
Am I gay?
Am I trans?
Am I straight?
I guess the normal questions you ask yourself when you first hear about different sexuality.
I wrote a letter to my mom, where I was telling her that I am gay and actually I don't remember a lot of the letter but I know that I was telling her that I am the same person as before and that I love her. I was too scared to give the letter personally, so I put it under her pillow.
The next day she didn´t even say a word to me until she drove me to school. As we arrived, the only thing she said was "I love you, no matter what!".
After a few weeks, I asked her if she could tell it the rest of the family because I didn´t want to come out a hundred times. We never talk about it again. I knew that she loves me and I didn`t want to tell her more about the whole "I love boys" story. So after a few months, we were talking more about boys and that stuff until she told me that my dad is not happy about the fact that I am gay. At first, it was not a problem for me because I never had a great relationship with him. Knowing that someone loves you less because you are, who you are is not the best way to grow up.
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Martin Kettenmeyer also is known as Martin_kto
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